“Everything happens for a reason.”
This is a popular sentiment or belief of many whether they believe in a higher power or not.
Sometimes I find it hard to subscribe to this theory when I hear of the many atrocities of mankind. I don’t mean the random acts of nature that we all know are possible at one time or another, I mean the deliberate evils of mankind through the ages. The calculated decisions that cause so much needless death & destruction. The premeditated plans of evil jealous fools to lead the masses to their own destruction all the while pretending to be the people’s “saviors” or helpers. These are our leaders. Blind leading the blind & you know how that’s going to turn out.
I never blame God for man’s atrocities or the acts of mother nature. Man’s atrocities are all on man. All that takes for evil to exist is other men to be agreeable to said evil or complacent. Shame on anyone who knows better but is too cowardly to fight back or speak up when needed. God created everything & told us how to live on earth. Every atrocity committed, no matter the excuse given, has always been an act against what Christ told us to do & how to live. They are acts against God & life as we know it. How is this even tolerable to anyone unless they agree with it?
If man does not get a grip on his inner demons the world is doomed. We see the unbelievers destruction on steroids since the “offended” are somehow in charge of the world & can mock & remove anything that might cause their demons to be exorcised or feel threatened in any way. For this end the truth is being demonized in the false hope to prevent said exorcism & save God’s people.
I keep calling these the “end times” & I don’t think I’m wrong. Man has had over 2000 years to get it together & start following the teachings of Christ as was intended. Instead of practicing the justice & rationale of the Golden Rule that Jesus taught his disciples to teach the world, the “unbelievers” try to erase any trace of His existence. They continuously insult our intelligence spreading false doctrine & rhetoric that Christianity is “dangerous.” All the while pointing to examples of the hypocrites or “wolves in sheeps clothing” that use the name of Christ in vain, getting rich by preaching false doctrine. You don’t have to be a soothsayer to predict man’s fate at this time.
Sadly if this is the best mankind can do than maybe it is God’s will that we come to the end intended for the disobedience that cannot be corrected.
I don’t wish to be long winded or disjointed in this post but I wanted to talk about coincidences or “things happening for a reason” in my own life. A surprising number of things in my life have not turn out as they should have or as I had hoped they would. This happens at times to all of us. When it happens regularly through no fault of your own, such as a bank failing or stocks crashing, you feel this is personal somehow. I know I do. I think what are the odds that this random bank or this good, solid decision would come back to bite me in the butt? If you think that way you would be afraid to get out of bed in the morning. When I look at the big spiritual picture & who my enemy really is, it makes perfect sense & I am in good company. That being said…
I wanted to mention something that I find interesting or coincidental in regards to applying for various juried art shows in the last 20 years or so.
As someone relatively “unknown” in the art community you have to always prove yourself or even have a name to be accepted in many art shows, especially the more popular ones. There’s always a waiting list. Some artists have applied for years before being accepted. Through the years I have hung in various galleries & was accepted to some of the juried shows & art fairs. Besides having a number of ribbons tucked away, there were sometimes cash prizes involved. Just the opportunity to be chosen for any popular art show or festival was an exciting opportunity for me.
I have been honored to have had numerous Computer Graphics dedicated to the various quotations of Christ throughout the first four books of the New Testament accepted to various art shows in which the same jurors had rejected my “secular” submissions. God’s will?
Oddly enough I had no preconceived notion of creating these graphics & presenting to them to the public at the time I decided to sell my condo in Canton & purchase a home closer to my job in downtown Detroit Michigan in 2004. I have always loved the Ford Historic Home district near Henry Ford Museum & Greenfield Village in Dearborn Michigan so I looked in the area & found a cute bungalow half the price of what the much larger historic homes were selling for & only a couple blocks away. Again, God’s will?
After my move I entered various art shows & hung in some of the local galleries as well as festivals & fairs. I didn’t choose my subject matter for submission as much as I feel now more than ever “it” chose me. I was strong in the Word of God at this time. Not the backslider I am now. I created various designs around the Crucifixtion of Christ. To call this the most “important event” the world will ever know is a gross understatement. To know that I walk among those that would mock this “gift” or not understand the enormity of WHY Jesus gave His life willingly in this very brutal manner disturbs me to say the least.
Jesus is our Savior because He is the ONLY hope this world has to stay here in one piece & NO ONE can deny this truth because they can see it with their own eyes. Either we all love one another or we will perish. Keep following the “anti-Christ” behavior this world promotes through it’s various media formats & suffer the obvious consequences. “The wages of sin is death.”
Slideshow of some of my past art show submissions:
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there.
God bless all the mothers who cannot be with their children for any reason this Mother’s Day.
God bless all the mothers who have lost children through various tragedies taking them before their time.
God bless all those who’s mothers have already passed from their earthly bondage.
A Christian holiday to commemorate the crucifixion of Jesus the Christ, son of God. I have always taken Christian holidays for granted until recently when I realize just how many unbelievers there really are right now that no longer believe in living & allowing others to live their lives.
America was established approximately 250 years ago to be run “for & by the people.” This is no longer the case. We now know that only those who are “approved” by the global elites can run for office or have a chance to serve in any capacity if they do not follow the global agenda & reflect their narratives & goals. You must worship them & not God.
As for me & my house I will serve the Lord & keep the commandments.
I had called to tell my mom hi & my brother said she was having one of her “off” days & to keep it brief as he had to hold the phone for her this time. She had been bed ridden since her hip surgery around Thanksgiving. I told her I loved her & she struggled to say it back this time. My brother said Goodbye to me but then called back about 20 minutes later to background commotion to tell me that mom just passed on right after I called. .
He said that he hung the phone up & asked my mom if she wanted a drink, which she refused so he was talking to her holding her hand & asking her stuff & she just breathed a few rapid breaths & passed. He immediately called 911 to see if there was anything they could do.
She had not been doing well off & on for the last few years. She previously had broken her arm in different places twice from falling, once in a store, but recovered from both injuries. Her last fall around the holidays left her with a broken femur which required surgery a couple days later. Unfortunately she has suffered for many years with osteoporosis making fractures more common. With her dementia getting worse, she has virtually not been out of the house in the last year due to the corona virus issues & lock down since March here in Michigan.
Praying she is in a better place right now. I do know that she was not a believer in Christ being the Savior. She had contact growing up with Christian & Jewish relatives & she once told me how she always played hooky from Sunday school. I was shocked to learn that they just sent her to the church down the street by herself. Great example for the kid. No wonder she didn’t go in. Churches are scary places to adults. I do know that she lived with the same Christian Aunt Ruth that I did most of her young life. She did teach me the Golden Rule & always practiced it herself. Glad I got to talk to her before she left. I personally believe that God is good, He is merciful, (yes, HE!) God is love. She is in heaven. Love you mom, see you soon.
Praying for God’s people in the name of Jesus for mercy & protection against the continued onslaught of evil from the enemy.
I am praying that everyone is safe & comforted in these very dangerous of times. Missing my loved ones especially during the holidays. Not just the ones that have previously passed from this world but all my family & friends the enemy has separated me from that currently still walk the earth. This is where everyone should have drawn the line months ago. There is nothing medically sound about what those currently in power are doing to all of us worldwide & we have to passively resist them.
Thanking God for all of my blessings and knowing that Thanksgiving is not about food, parades or even family but a time to thank God for all His mercy & the gift of salvation to His people through our Lord Jesus Christ.
The people are literally being hit from all sides, pulled in every direction. The believer knows what time it is.
The Holy Bible is not fiction. Many pretend not to believe, to mock, but deep in the recesses of their souls…they know the truth.
Stay the course.
Be the light.
Yes we were. We were created to reflect the love of God.
Also a great CD by John David Webster. Where I used his song “Miracle” for my fall video.
So I created this after the last election in America 2016. Even more obvious today than 4 years ago.
Repent & accept Christ as your Lord & Savior. Some try to fight it, but they won’t win. There’s a reason Jesus was called the Savior. The world cannot live by their own lusts & urges. By doing what you want & acting on impulse. This is why we are seeing toddlers in grown up bodies acting a fool encouraged by media publicity & stoked by their selfish egos & ignorance. This is not open for debate. This is not my opinion. Repent or suffer the consequence.
I have been very hesitant to talk about my previous “lives” like when I was a teenager. Some of it was pretty crazy, but cool (borderline criminal?). My youth was filled with exciting adventures & very interesting people that I only now appreciate. Part of this was due to my impulsive nature & bad judgement coupled with my looks & various talents or skills. I wish I could name names but I hold others privacy very sacred.
House Arrest has given me too much time to reflect. Sometimes it’s a good thing. We need some alone time, but not placed in forced isolation for crimes we didn’t commit for over 6 months. How the hell did “15 day to flatten the curve” turn into this politicized shit show?
Normally I can easily distract myself with odds & ends on the internet, talking with strangers & the like but as I would traverse through my dreary day to day, mostly online, something I would read would remind me of some similar experience that had happened to me at one time. Sometimes it was just a person’s looks, something they did or said that would remind me of someone or something in my past.
Example. I was watching a program and where an actor looked “familiar” to me even though I had not seen that show before. I looked to see on IMDb what other works I could have possible seen him in before. Nothing…but when I saw some other photos of him he was the spitting image of my first love who I hadn’t thought about most of my life for obvious reasons. He was my first kiss, “my first” & the first man to break my heart at the tender age of 14. He was 23 at the time.
I didn’t just think about my “seduction,” because that’s what this really was, I thought about how this could have ever happened to me. I even went so far as to ask my mother why she & my father allowed me to go off with a man of that age at the age of 14. She told me “I should know better what to do with men by that age.” I was amazed her lack of parenting skills went this far. What did they think a 23 year old really wanted from a pouty lipped, shapely little bleached blonde that looked much older than her age & experience?
I was never boy crazy. I didn’t hate them, I liked them as friends. I was very sexually “slow” and sort of that way much of my life. I could really relate to that character “Sheldon Cooper” on The Big Bang Theory. The man first just acted like my friend, stole a kiss one day then kept upping what he did to me & my body so I didn’t “spook.” He must have been experienced in seduction. He was a nice looking “bad boy” who drove a motorcycle & I thought he was so cool. He wasn’t a bum or someone in a motorcycle gang. He had a good job as a trained electrician.
I was new to the neighborhood, he spotted me & was asking questions about me. I was told he was shocked when he found out I was only 14. “I don’t believe she’s only 14” is what he supposedly said. I liked his younger cousin who cut his grass & was only 16 years old. That’s actually how he got me to trust him in the first place. We were to meet his cousin at his family’s cottage one day & we did. His cousin met us there & we all swam & had a good time. He was probably disappointed in my choice of swimsuits that were usually worn by older, heavier women to hide their figure flaws. I was trying to hide my obvious assets from all my admirers. Most girls try to entice while I would at times deliberately repel. It was a two piece with trunks to my waist & a loose blouse top that covered my perfect midriff area with built in bra of course. It was cute but very modest.
Then one of the times he was “taking me to meet this cousin” who I was never romantic with either, the cousin never showed up. We still “hung out” & went swimming but I felt a little uneasy. The funniest thing too, as naive as I was or maybe stupid, I had a strange feeling when I was changing out of my bathing suit back into my clothing this time. I was actually fearing he might come in on me. He never acted in a threatening or aggressive manner to frighten me in any way, but I was probably picking up on his unspoken “vibes.” It’s so strange when you are sexually awake how you might anticipate this feeling with excitement. Not having any inclination towards anything sexual I was a little fearful instead. He never did but right before we were getting on his motorcycle to go back home he kissed me for the first time full on the lips in a romantic way. I was shocked beyond belief.
It was my first kiss & electricity did shoot through me at that time but I still didn’t know what I felt. I almost swooned which is not good if you are about to go flying down a highway on a motorcycle. He always looked out for my safety when I rode with him. He had a helmet for me. I had to wear boots & be completely covered in heavy fabric, either leather or denim. He was riding with a buddy once & they wiped out in summer clothes on the pavement & his friend was almost skinned alive.
I won’t go into detail but one thing kept leading to another until he did something that he should not have done & I let him. I realize how good girls can end up getting themselves pregnant all the time. There is some sick trick that nature plays with us where men are more attracted to those that they should not legally or even logically be attracted to. This is one of the things I think about. The perversity that is our reality. The way we want to do things that are wrong or bad for us & have an aversion to that which is good & healthy.
I also was having a good chuckle when I remembered what I first thought about sex when I found out what it was around the age of 11, which was just a few years before I “did the deed.” Some friends told me what the word “fuck” meant so I asked my mom if this was true, that people did this & she confirmed it and even told me everyone does it. I was devastated! I began to cry & cry & say “NO WAY am I going to do something that sick.” Just the thought of it disgusted me. She was laughing her head off & of course it’s very funny to me now but it explains why I obviously had some kind of sexual aversion as a young person. I remember her saying. “Wait til you get older, you will change your mind.” I’m screaming “no I won’t!”
I started thinking of what a hard but very interesting & blessed life I have led. People throw around the phrase, “been there, done that” but I can say in confidence this is very true in my case as a woman’s take on life only of course. Even to the extremes of life.
I have blessed & cursed & been blessed & cursed. I have gained & lost financially as well as personally. I have seen the best in people and the worst. I have experienced joy & pleasure as well as the depth of hell a soul can enter and still return to life. There are many things in my life that I have never shared with anyone except those closest to me that were involved or experienced it with me. I have never been a “sharer” of my personal feelings or experiences. I probably think they will be used against me & they actually were by someone I should have been able to trust just a couple of weeks ago.
I see many online who share all kinds of personal details that I would be too ashamed or devastated to relive in detail. I like to remember the fun & exciting times but the bad memories I have chosen to forget all these years are creeping back into mind because I’m in a more negative mindset than I have been in many years. I think most of us are because our logic tells us there is more here than meets the eye. Your inner preservation always warns you when something just doesn’t seem right even with the non-stop media gaslighting blitz of “Alone Together” nonsense.
Through my life I have chosen to remain positive & have faith in God that “it is what it is” His will be done. I am not a person who believes that if you are really good God will bless you. I know the opposite is usually true, even though it is written as Jesus stated “With God all things are possible.” I also know what has happened to the most faithful of servants of God on earth & why we don’t store up our treasures here. That’s why “Murphy’s Law”, “No Good Deed Goes Unpunished” & “shit happens” are popular sayings.