I had called to tell my mom hi & my brother said she was having one of her “off” days & to keep it brief as he had to hold the phone for her this time. She had been bed ridden since her hip surgery around Thanksgiving. I told her I loved her & she struggled to say it back this time. My brother said Goodbye to me but then called back about 20 minutes later to background commotion to tell me that mom just passed on right after I called. .
He said that he hung the phone up & asked my mom if she wanted a drink, which she refused so he was talking to her holding her hand & asking her stuff & she just breathed a few rapid breaths & passed. He immediately called 911 to see if there was anything they could do.
She had not been doing well off & on for the last few years. She previously had broken her arm in different places twice from falling, once in a store, but recovered from both injuries. Her last fall around the holidays left her with a broken femur which required surgery a couple days later. Unfortunately she has suffered for many years with osteoporosis making fractures more common. With her dementia getting worse, she has virtually not been out of the house in the last year due to the corona virus issues & lock down since March here in Michigan.
Praying she is in a better place right now. I do know that she was not a believer in Christ being the Savior. She had contact growing up with Christian & Jewish relatives & she once told me how she always played hooky from Sunday school. I was shocked to learn that they just sent her to the church down the street by herself. Great example for the kid. No wonder she didn’t go in. Churches are scary places to adults. I do know that she lived with the same Christian Aunt Ruth that I did most of her young life. She did teach me the Golden Rule & always practiced it herself. Glad I got to talk to her before she left. I personally believe that God is good, He is merciful, (yes, HE!) God is love. She is in heaven. Love you mom, see you soon.
Praying for God’s people in the name of Jesus for mercy & protection against the continued onslaught of evil from the enemy.
I am praying that everyone is safe & comforted in these very dangerous of times. Missing my loved ones especially during the holidays. Not just the ones that have previously passed from this world but all my family & friends the enemy has separated me from that currently still walk the earth. This is where everyone should have drawn the line months ago. There is nothing medically sound about what those currently in power are doing to all of us worldwide & we have to passively resist them.
Thanking God for all of my blessings and knowing that Thanksgiving is not about food, parades or even family but a time to thank God for all His mercy & the gift of salvation to His people through our Lord Jesus Christ.
The people are literally being hit from all sides, pulled in every direction. The believer knows what time it is.
The Holy Bible is not fiction. Many pretend not to believe, to mock, but deep in the recesses of their souls…they know the truth.
Stay the course.
Be the light.
Yes we were. We were created to reflect the love of God.
Also a great CD by John David Webster. Where I used his song “Miracle” for my fall video.
So I created this after the last election in America 2016. Even more obvious today than 4 years ago.
Repent & accept Christ as your Lord & Savior. Some try to fight it, but they won’t win. There’s a reason Jesus was called the Savior. The world cannot live by their own lusts & urges. By doing what you want & acting on impulse. This is why we are seeing toddlers in grown up bodies acting a fool encouraged by media publicity & stoked by their selfish egos & ignorance. This is not open for debate. This is not my opinion. Repent or suffer the consequence.
I have been very hesitant to talk about my previous “lives” like when I was a teenager. Some of it was pretty crazy, but cool (borderline criminal?). My youth was filled with exciting adventures & very interesting people that I only now appreciate. Part of this was due to my impulsive nature & bad judgement coupled with my looks & various talents or skills. I wish I could name names but I hold others privacy very sacred.
House Arrest has given me too much time to reflect. Sometimes it’s a good thing. We need some alone time, but not placed in forced isolation for crimes we didn’t commit for over 6 months. How the hell did “15 day to flatten the curve” turn into this politicized shit show?
Normally I can easily distract myself with odds & ends on the internet, talking with strangers & the like but as I would traverse through my dreary day to day, mostly online, something I would read would remind me of some similar experience that had happened to me at one time. Sometimes it was just a person’s looks, something they did or said that would remind me of someone or something in my past.
Example. I was watching a program and where an actor looked “familiar” to me even though I had not seen that show before. I looked to see on IMDb what other works I could have possible seen him in before. Nothing…but when I saw some other photos of him he was the spitting image of my first love who I hadn’t thought about most of my life for obvious reasons. He was my first kiss, “my first” & the first man to break my heart at the tender age of 14. He was 23 at the time.
I didn’t just think about my “seduction,” because that’s what this really was, I thought about how this could have ever happened to me. I even went so far as to ask my mother why she & my father allowed me to go off with a man of that age at the age of 14. She told me “I should know better what to do with men by that age.” I was amazed her lack of parenting skills went this far. What did they think a 23 year old really wanted from a pouty lipped, shapely little bleached blonde that looked much older than her age & experience?
I was never boy crazy. I didn’t hate them, I liked them as friends. I was very sexually “slow” and sort of that way much of my life. I could really relate to that character “Sheldon Cooper” on The Big Bang Theory. The man first just acted like my friend, stole a kiss one day then kept upping what he did to me & my body so I didn’t “spook.” He must have been experienced in seduction. He was a nice looking “bad boy” who drove a motorcycle & I thought he was so cool. He wasn’t a bum or someone in a motorcycle gang. He had a good job as a trained electrician.
I was new to the neighborhood, he spotted me & was asking questions about me. I was told he was shocked when he found out I was only 14. “I don’t believe she’s only 14” is what he supposedly said. I liked his younger cousin who cut his grass & was only 16 years old. That’s actually how he got me to trust him in the first place. We were to meet his cousin at his family’s cottage one day & we did. His cousin met us there & we all swam & had a good time. He was probably disappointed in my choice of swimsuits that were usually worn by older, heavier women to hide their figure flaws. I was trying to hide my obvious assets from all my admirers. Most girls try to entice while I would at times deliberately repel. It was a two piece with trunks to my waist & a loose blouse top that covered my perfect midriff area with built in bra of course. It was cute but very modest.
Then one of the times he was “taking me to meet this cousin” who I was never romantic with either, the cousin never showed up. We still “hung out” & went swimming but I felt a little uneasy. The funniest thing too, as naive as I was or maybe stupid, I had a strange feeling when I was changing out of my bathing suit back into my clothing this time. I was actually fearing he might come in on me. He never acted in a threatening or aggressive manner to frighten me in any way, but I was probably picking up on his unspoken “vibes.” It’s so strange when you are sexually awake how you might anticipate this feeling with excitement. Not having any inclination towards anything sexual I was a little fearful instead. He never did but right before we were getting on his motorcycle to go back home he kissed me for the first time full on the lips in a romantic way. I was shocked beyond belief.
It was my first kiss & electricity did shoot through me at that time but I still didn’t know what I felt. I almost swooned which is not good if you are about to go flying down a highway on a motorcycle. He always looked out for my safety when I rode with him. He had a helmet for me. I had to wear boots & be completely covered in heavy fabric, either leather or denim. He was riding with a buddy once & they wiped out in summer clothes on the pavement & his friend was almost skinned alive.
I won’t go into detail but one thing kept leading to another until he did something that he should not have done & I let him. I realize how good girls can end up getting themselves pregnant all the time. There is some sick trick that nature plays with us where men are more attracted to those that they should not legally or even logically be attracted to. This is one of the things I think about. The perversity that is our reality. The way we want to do things that are wrong or bad for us & have an aversion to that which is good & healthy.
I also was having a good chuckle when I remembered what I first thought about sex when I found out what it was around the age of 11, which was just a few years before I “did the deed.” Some friends told me what the word “fuck” meant so I asked my mom if this was true, that people did this & she confirmed it and even told me everyone does it. I was devastated! I began to cry & cry & say “NO WAY am I going to do something that sick.” Just the thought of it disgusted me. She was laughing her head off & of course it’s very funny to me now but it explains why I obviously had some kind of sexual aversion as a young person. I remember her saying. “Wait til you get older, you will change your mind.” I’m screaming “no I won’t!”
I started thinking of what a hard but very interesting & blessed life I have led. People throw around the phrase, “been there, done that” but I can say in confidence this is very true in my case as a woman’s take on life only of course. Even to the extremes of life.
I have blessed & cursed & been blessed & cursed. I have gained & lost financially as well as personally. I have seen the best in people and the worst. I have experienced joy & pleasure as well as the depth of hell a soul can enter and still return to life. There are many things in my life that I have never shared with anyone except those closest to me that were involved or experienced it with me. I have never been a “sharer” of my personal feelings or experiences. I probably think they will be used against me & they actually were by someone I should have been able to trust just a couple of weeks ago.
I see many online who share all kinds of personal details that I would be too ashamed or devastated to relive in detail. I like to remember the fun & exciting times but the bad memories I have chosen to forget all these years are creeping back into mind because I’m in a more negative mindset than I have been in many years. I think most of us are because our logic tells us there is more here than meets the eye. Your inner preservation always warns you when something just doesn’t seem right even with the non-stop media gaslighting blitz of “Alone Together” nonsense.
Through my life I have chosen to remain positive & have faith in God that “it is what it is” His will be done. I am not a person who believes that if you are really good God will bless you. I know the opposite is usually true, even though it is written as Jesus stated “With God all things are possible.” I also know what has happened to the most faithful of servants of God on earth & why we don’t store up our treasures here. That’s why “Murphy’s Law”, “No Good Deed Goes Unpunished” & “shit happens” are popular sayings.
There she was again teasing. She loved it. She seemed to enjoy tempting others with her “goodies.”
How he ached. He was tired of just standing there being a good boy, waiting.
She moaned & licked her lips seductively. He was ready to burst!
He finally decided he could no longer tolerate her constant taunting with little regard to how she was effecting him. A man can only stand so much!
Without breaking his gaze he slowly made his way across the room. Did he finally have the nerve? Should he say anything? What if he gets slapped or worse, arrested?
He no longer cared about society’s mores. He was a man possessed. Driven by a lust that had to be satisfied.
The sweet scent of vanilla filled his nostrils & he began salivating like one of Pavlov’s dogs. It’s now or never he thought, his longing overcoming him. No thought social norms or fear of rejection could stop him.
He stood directly in front of her now, eyes glazed over with lust. Now it was he licking his lips. He closed his eyes & reached for her two perfect milky mounds of pleasure.
She screamed, “Take your hands off my ice cream!”
Well you know we all be screaming for ice cream.
Shared one of my old stories from creative writing years ago. Thought something lighthearted would be a nice change of pace. I have books & books of poetry & stories that just sit and beg to put out into the world.
I awoke to find the devil is alive & well even out here in the country & there is no escape from random acts of violence even when you leave the big cities for this reason. Safety is a delusion. Now granted, Adrian Michigan is a city with big city drugs & crime so I shouldn’t be all that surprised.
Apparently an 85 year old man was stabbed to death in a random attack in the middle of the day while shopping in the Adrian Michigan Meijers yesterday Wednesday, September 16th 2020. It’s a clean, quiet store. The employees are lovely people. It’s an atmosphere where you feel safe. Luckily a woman with a clear head & a concealed weapon stopped him & with her gun drawn, kept the suspect at bay until the police could arrive. Still want to defund the police fools? Apparently another shopper that tried to stop this man physically was also wounded.
Safe place? There ain’t no such place. Learn this now. The more “the world” hides the Truth from others, the more crimes like this you will see. How did the liberal, the heathen think things would turn out when they frantically demanded all Words of Hope & Peace be removed from our schools & public view? Was this kind of evil deliberate on their part or are they genuinely just spiritually blind?
I have not sat idly by & have tried by emails & social media for some time to get various televangelists or “preachers”(false prophets) pretending to represent Christ to speak up on what is currently going on in our country & world. There is one man who half asses this & that is Billy Graham’s son.
Please stop voting for ignorant or “progressive” people. I have a real problem with anyone who has a problem with the teachings of Christ. Who’s offended by love, forgiveness & mercy? Evil that’s who. I can’t change anyone’s heart. I do know that I really do not like anyone who can’t see what the hell is going on right now because I know just how spiritually blind they have to be. I don’t know why some don’t see the obvious. Are they too frightened to face the truth? Many are, I’m sure. There’s a time when you have to decide to do what is safe or do what is right, because they’re never the same thing.
Please be careful & alert everywhere you go. We have a mainstream media that has been encouraging violence & attacks in America ever since November 9th, 2016 & their candidate failed to win the election & they began their coup with Hillary’s command to “resist.” Oh yes, all this schiff is on her. She will go down in history as the most evil, corrupt human being to ever walk this earth….so far….if truth is not finally silence forever by these criminal minded power hungry fools.
The SECOND anyone in any government positions speaks words of hate, violence or anarchy against our country or it’s citizens there should be a swift removal of said person from that position by military police or secret service/homeland security agents with charges pending. They are NEVER to be allowed back in any position of authority again & depending on the severity should have criminal charges filed against them. This is how it used to be before communist infiltration in America. I won’t sit by & watch more innocent people die because of these vile criminals temporarily have the authority to wreak havoc in our nation. How about the rest of you? Please file complaints with DOJ, State Department & Office of Congressional Ethics if this behavior is unacceptable to you.
Very Time Appropriate to post this reblog from April 2016. Shame on anyone that is behind turning our free country into yet another third world communist “shithole.”
Goes without saying.
I was thinking of various careers/jobs I could never do but others that have the knack, spirit or just plain guts do for various reason. Obviously these are people I greatly admire. Anyone who can do something I can’t or won’t, has my respect and admiration. The world could not survive without those willing to do jobs that are very hard, unpleasant and or extremely dangerous.
These jobs include but are not limited to: soldiers, police officers, firemen, EMT’s, doctors, nurses and really anything working with a patient’s life, morticians, airline pilots, air traffic controllers and any jobs where people are responsible for the care and safety of human life. I’m sure I’ve forgotten some, but you get the gist.
I especially admire our police officers lately because of a few rogue cops, they are all getting a bad name as well as their lives are in more danger than ever before because of all the bad publicity and biased reporting…
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