Fear of failure?
Fear of Success?
Lazy? Probably. I always was one of those people that waited til the last minute to kick something out. I was one of those kids that sat up all night before a report was due before I buckled down. I admit to feeling very stifled living in this thin walled apartment. I am easily distracted and if it’s too noisy, that’s my excust not to try. It’s hard to turn out anything decent if your heart’s not in it and sadly I have lost my passion.
I began to feel this way after I got computer software that creates similar results with a push of a few buttons instead of hours with various art mediums. Only fooled around the last few years experimenting and doing some collages but have not done anything Gallery or Show worthy. Used to love oil painting but gave it up due to the turps and then tried the so called oils you can mix with water. Better than acrylic, which I don’t care for in fine art painting, but still not the same. I have never studied watercolor with anyone and I will do that soon for the heck of it. I understand the basics of watercolor from taking it while still in high school but I will see if I can find an artist in the area who gives lessons if I like their style.